For some reason I'm getting a feeling that I'm starting to lose everything I hold dear.

Too many things have been happening lately. I'm getting stressed out. Someone please put me out of my misery.

I miss my girlfriend even though I just met her this afternoon. I feel bad for what happened today.

I miss my little sister that I declared so less than a week ago. Somehow I feel that I'm annoying her too much.

I miss the times when I have lots of fun things to do at home and not worry about anything. Now, I can't seem to do anything productive and soon I'll be working as an intern. Not to mention the heavy load of stress that I'm getting from the company that I wanna work at. Talk about having made to do something that you're not good at.

I miss being happy. Somehow I can't smile much nowadays. Something must be wrong with me.

I have to get rid of this mindset of mine. I have to get rid of all the unhappiness inside of me. I have to stop thinking about what others think of me. I have to stop worrying so much about people that may not even know the fact that I'm missing them every single second.

I have to change...but how...?

Should I call her...? Or should I just wait till Saturday and talk to her face to face...? My mind's in a whirl...

Life really gets tougher the more matured you become...

Dempster
10:14 PM