SIP finally started today. I reached my workplace a little too early, so I walked around the area first, and ended up having breakfast at McDonald's. After breakfast, the time for work had started.

I was very unsure of what to do at first because it was my first day there, so I just sat at where I was supposed to and started drawing some random stuffs. I thought it would be very hectic and all, but when I started work, it didn't seem as such. In fact, it was actually quite fun! The people there are very nice too.

I guess that's pretty much there is about work today. Although I was let off early today, I had to stay all the way till my time is up from tomorrow onwards. I hope it's not so bad.

Dempster
7:12 PM

Internship is starting tomorrow. This is a completely new experience for me because I have never worked as part of a design/production company before (previously I worked as a cheapass waiter and currently as a on-and-off voice actor) But they're doing motion graphics and stuffs!!! I hope I don't screw things up...

Now if that still wasn't enough, we still have to fill out some stupid book! I won't mind it so much, but I'm just worried that I can't remember to fill it out and in turn get anally raped. Aw man...never know that working as an intern would be so much work...

I guess the only thing I'll look forward to is my paycheck and all the goodness I can get from it...money money money~~~

Well, I guess that's it for now. To all interns, good luck on your internship!

Dempster
6:35 PM

I was compiling my portfolio for APEL 3 for submission tomorrow, and I came upon something I wrote 2 years back. Ahh the nostalgia...anyway I read through it and realized that I actually wrote this in one of the sections:

"If I have 100 days left to live, I would like to do the following things:
I'll be spending as much time as I can with my family. I don't want to suffer the same fate as my father, who passed away before coming back home and seeing us for one last time. I'll start writing a will and distribute all the possessions I have to all my family. I do not want anyone else to get hold of my stuffs. I'll tell everyone whom I see as friends that I'm sorry for all the mistakes that I've done in the past and thank them for being a friend to me."

It all sounds really depressing huh...? Haha...well I don't think I need to know that I have 100 days left to live to do all the things above. I guess...I'll start small and take a step at a time.

So here's to all my friends and those whom I see as friends even though they know they don't: I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done in my life. No one is perfect, and I am no exception. The mistakes may be grave or minor, but I will correct them as much as I can if given the chance. Also, thank you all for being my friend. I may not be a perfect friend to you, but to me, you guys are. Thank you for being there for me when I need you, and thank you for everything you've given to me.

Thank you everyone...without you, my life is a complete shell of emptiness......

Dempster
7:06 PM

2 more days and it's the submission day for Advanced 3D Animation. I'm supposed to do a tutorial on a given topic, in my case it's modeling and rigging of mechanical objects. In fact, I'm supposed to be doing it now, but I don't feel like it. It's really tedious, and after this module I think I'm gonna dislike 3D. Yeah I know, then why take this module in the first place? Well who thought it would be so damned advanced??? I should have just taken acting instead...

Anyway a few more days and it'll be the start of SIP. I thought it's just the usual "go to office, work, time up, go home" kind of thing, but I was so wrong. We had to fill out some stupid book on what we did for the day, reflections, etc etc etc bullshit. What's worse was that I got posted to a company that does things completely different from what I learned: motion graphics. Although it can be considered animation, I'm still new to it, and it'll be such a disgrace for me to go there and find out that I can't do anything at all. I must really buck up and learn some stuffs from Andrew Kramer...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH STRESSSSSSSS......it's killing me from the inside out X___________X

Dempster
9:54 PM

It hurts to lose someone you love. Everyone knows that.

But it hurts even more to know that someone you love doesn't/no longer loves you. That might be how I'm feeling now.

No, I'm not just talking about BGR. I'm also talking about family and friends.

If love hurts so much, what's the point in loving?

This is going too far. I don't wanna fall in love again. I don't wanna get involved with someone else's life and complicate my life further anymore.

I guess I should just......cut myself off the world and not care about anything. Yeah...it would be better that way.

Dempster
12:32 PM

Peiwen told me that she may not be able to make it because of her hectic schedule once her Uni starts. In other words, she won't be cosplaying Haruhi with me.

I. AM. SCREWED.

*desparate mode on*

ANYONE INTERESTED TO COSPLAY HARUHI WITH ME FOR EOY 2008???????????

*desparate mode off*

I don't think that's gonna help. I think I'm gonna be alone for EOY again. Aw man just when I thought everything was going well.......

Dempster
10:19 PM

I think I'm becoming more emo nowadays. Not even a dose of AVGN can make me smile as much as it did last time.

I lost a part of my life that I can never get back. I feel very lonely now. I need someone with me.

But......who will be there....?

Dempster
9:56 PM