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Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Mizuki's right. I'm not a good person.

I can't understand her at all. My mind is too shallow. But every time I try my best to understand her, she just violently pushes me off and passes off as nothing. I mean, wtf?? I was just trying to understand her, why does she have to do that to me?

She says I understand her at all, but does she understand me as well? If she does, why is she expecting me to understand her? I told her so many times that I can't understand someone unless I talk to that person...why can't she just understand that simple fact???

I just wanna know her more...and this is what I get.......? What did I do to deserve this...?

Does she even care about me...? Does she even take me as her boyfriend...? Does she even love me...?

I'm the kind of person that tries to help people as much as I can...that's exactly what I'm doing right now...but why do I lose the trust from my girlfriend in the process...? Is helping other people wrong...?

I said I want to be by her side forever...but I'm afraid I can't accomplish that because she doesn't want to open herself up to me...how can I care for her this way......?

Every single day is the same...no, it's getting worse...I don't want this to happen anymore...I don't want to...it's torturing me like crazy......

Now...I'm back to square one...all alone...with no one by my side...not even her...................

Dempster
2:13 AM


Thursday, December 18, 2008
It sucks to be me because I'm a useless person. Why can't I do anything right...?

Dempster
10:59 PM


Monday, December 15, 2008
Seriously...what the hell is going on?

I asked if I made you angry, you said no. I wanted to know what's wrong, you said nothing. I just wanted to help, and this is what I got? Are you trying to tell me that it doesn't pay to be kind at all? If that's the case I would have no friends now. Oh wait...do I even have any?

You told me to come talk to you should I have any problems. Currently I don't, so that's okay. I will if I do though. But how can I talk to you when you're like this as well? All I'm doing is try to help, so why are you rejecting my help? Why are you being so unfair to me?

Oh and EOY sucks. 'nuff said.

Dempster
2:47 PM


The Details
Name:Masaki Ryodo

DOB: 060589

Lives in: Singapore

Hobbies: Drawing, playing games, eating, sleeping, listening to music, recording audios, playing musical instruments, singing

Likes: Janne Da Arc, Rockman, my family, my Vater drum sticks, blue, nature, singing

Dislikes: Backstabbers, annoyance, americanisation, stuck up and/or snobbish people, things that happen last minute, stress

Personal Quote
"I am not a perfect person, but I can help you when needed. If I can't help, I'll do my best to listen."

The Music
Hitotsu [fandub]
I Want
My own room
Complete Ano Hi no Taiyou
Complete Rockman Delta
A recording studio
DS LITE
To earn money
PHOTOSHOP CS3
Learn to sing well
My own drum set
GOOD INTERNET
NINTENDO WII IJDIAOSJFOEOAW
OPTIMUS PRIME FIGURINE
PSP
MORE TIME
WACOM TABLET
Electric guitar
COSPLAY AS KYON

The Past
September 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 June 2009


The Links
Other Blogs

Daniel Kong
Benjamin Poh
Shahul
Aidah
Hafiz
Jaseemah
Idah
Ubaidah
Yumi
Froggy
Rino
Haris
Yvonne
Angie
Cheryl "Keita" Ang
Wei Wei
Atsumori Yuki
Minatsu-chan
Fiona Poh
Evon
Eekeng
Akiha
Chibi
Lirin
Valerie aka Aya
Dear dear
Kumiko
KuroHoshi
Sakura-chan
Baitenshii
Acedemond
Yuna
Simin
Izumi
Ayu
Ryan Ding Ding Dong
Miharu-sensei
Kimberly Kaceng
Beckie
My DesTi1 Blog

Other Links

My DeviantART Page
My Youtube Channel
Blogspot

The Past Post
  • Armie
  • Stinking update
  • I'll be loving you forever
  • What they said
  • Re-Cycling
  • Best.Day.EVAR.
  • Day after Val's day
  • Confession
  • Sometimes When We Touch
  • WTF...???


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