Friday, January 30, 2009
"You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
Id rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
Im only just beginning
To see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
Im just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times Id like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times Id like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
And Ive watched love pass you by
At times I think were drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides"
And I choke on my reply
Id rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
Im only just beginning
To see the real you
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
Im just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
At times Id like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times Id like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
And Ive watched love pass you by
At times I think were drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides"
Sigh.......
Dempster
12:25 AM
12:25 AM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
"Hi, before you read the below, We will need you to submit some past karaoke songs with your voice. Our panel of judges had agreed that your Demo MP3 you sent in sounded very close to the original song that we you to send in a 2nd demo song with your past karaoke songs.
Once we hear it, we will infrom you the next course of action.
Togusa"
Seriously....wtf...??? My singing style sounds close to the original to the point that it's unbelievable...?
I think I'm screwed for my singing career D=
Once we hear it, we will infrom you the next course of action.
Togusa"
Seriously....wtf...??? My singing style sounds close to the original to the point that it's unbelievable...?
I think I'm screwed for my singing career D=
Dempster
8:16 PM
8:16 PM
Friday, January 16, 2009
I went for napfa today. Finally finished it. Whew. Didn't go too well, but not too bad either.
Standing broad jump - not as good as the previous time.
Sit & reach - deproved again. Sigh.
Pull up - IMPROVED! I couldn't do any before, now I can do one! 8D Still failed though.
Shuttle run - First try: shoe came off. Second try: fell and almost scraped my ass. Third try: finally got through but didn't do as well as before again.
Sit ups - Deproved as well. Aiyo...
2.4km run - Repeatedly telling myself 825HP and KYOKUGEN at the last stretch didn't help D=
Okay not as well.
Anyway after napfa, went to take a rest and chatted with my friends who also went for napfa. After resting and drinking cold water and all, we finally decided to go home. Gawd, after 2.4, I was walking like a crippled asshole! It felt like my legs were totally drained and a poke would be enough to break it.
In the bus, it wasn't a soothing ride at all. Not only was I unable to sleep, but there was this annoying baby that kept crying in a high pitch that nearly ruptured my ear drums. It was so high and sharp and managed to find its way through my earphones and into my ear. Even the songs I was listening didn't help to cover it up. I know, it's a baby, and it's natural for babies to cry, etc etc etc, but that's the reason why I don't like babies.
Anyway that's all. I'm too tired to rant on and I need to focus on my FYP. Next Wednesday's Interim 2. Hooray for TP.
Dempster
9:37 PM
9:37 PM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I'm very very disappointed. My dear doesn't understand me at all.
It was pretty alright today. Did my project in school, went home and continue, yada yada yada...dear even talked to me about her problems and I managed to comfort her. But when night falls, things changed. Although I'm okay with her talking to someone, I'm not okay with the fact that she treats me so differently after that. I mean, what the hell is the problem??
It could be just me and my jealousy, but how would someone feel if his girlfriend talks with a guy as per normal (or has a lot of things to say), and then when she talks to him, she has nothing to talk about? To me, it's like using me to kill boredom, and phailing hard at it. If this way she's treating me is considered treating me like her boyfriend, this whole world would be my spouse.
Okay I'm not making sense here, but seriously, that was what happened. It was alright for once or twice, but I'm really not liking it. If there are so much to talk about between the both of you, then why are you two friends? Seriously, you guys should get together...not that I want to but seeing it as the way it is now, geez......
Not only that, when I told her about my jealousy towards this, she doesn't comfort me or anything. To the contrary, she kept her mouth shut. What the hell?! Why is she treating me unfairly again?! Then what for I comfort her in the first place?? I did so because I love you, and I want you to be happy, and this is the kind of shit I get? Do you even care about me in the first place??
This is already not the first time happening, and I know it's gonna happen again. But before my very last breath, I have to make sure this kind of shit doesn't happen. But without her cooperation, I know this is not gonna be possible...
At least she has a friend that understands her (you should know who I'm talking about). Me?
No. One. At. All.
I'm. All. Alone.
All. Over. Again.
Dempster
12:29 AM
12:29 AM
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I'm currently in school right now working on my FYP, but I'm not feeling well...my eyes are constantly burning hot and I keep sneezing...on top of that I'm feeling cold in the aircon room, even colder than I usually feel...am I falling sick? If I am it better goes away fast...
I know my blog is full of emo posts, so I shall clear it all up now by saying thanks to everyone I've known for the past few months, especially those from the 12000YASF. You guys have brought light to my life even though we all have ups and downs. I hope that we can stay together forever, both in and out of cosplay. Thank you all...
Also, there's someone that I haven't properly expressed my gratitude to yet. She's been with me for 4 months, supported me whenever I needed her and also one of the only people that can bring a smile to my face almost all the time. Other that my gratitude I would also like to apologise to her for not being a perfect boyfriend and I will do my best to change it. Through the ups and downs, I hope it will only strengthen the bond between the both of us. Thank you dear...you're the best.
Oh yeah, and happy 2009. Although it doesn't feel like it, we're forced to acknowledge the fact that it is a new year. So yeah, have fun.
I know my blog is full of emo posts, so I shall clear it all up now by saying thanks to everyone I've known for the past few months, especially those from the 12000YASF. You guys have brought light to my life even though we all have ups and downs. I hope that we can stay together forever, both in and out of cosplay. Thank you all...
Also, there's someone that I haven't properly expressed my gratitude to yet. She's been with me for 4 months, supported me whenever I needed her and also one of the only people that can bring a smile to my face almost all the time. Other that my gratitude I would also like to apologise to her for not being a perfect boyfriend and I will do my best to change it. Through the ups and downs, I hope it will only strengthen the bond between the both of us. Thank you dear...you're the best.
Oh yeah, and happy 2009. Although it doesn't feel like it, we're forced to acknowledge the fact that it is a new year. So yeah, have fun.
Dempster
12:58 PM
12:58 PM
